steve jobs

take time to watch this video, steve jobs’ 2005 commencement address in stanford. he’s the CEO and cofounder of Apple and of Pixar Animation studios. three stories in his life which could make a difference to yours. =)

two years ago, this time, serene was dumping and stuffing all her belongings into black trash bags. then last year, gladbirdie left A509 in a mad rush. this year, it’s my turn to pack my past, secrets and four years of wonderful moments into my bag of memories. i don’t have to pack now, but if i don’t, next week’s gonna be a mad rush. unexplainable thoughts, unspeakable feelings. these can’t be simply described in words, but i know that you know, you know what i mean?

by the way, i’m really having a tough time packing up my stuff. things my mom will term ‘rubbish’. but seriously, without those lil stupid notes which kept me going, cute but useless handicrafts which accompanied me when i’m down, unfinished sweets as gifts by your loves, etc etc etc etc, i can safely say that the past four years would be quite meaningless. it’s a strong sentiment, probably CRAPPY to some, but i’m sincerely saying it from the bottom of my heart.

actually, it’s a good time to pack now. you know, when others are preoccupied with exams and studying, saying goodbye would be made easier, at least for me.

takes a minute to say hello, but forever to say goodbye. so true eh.

this probably explains for my fluctuating mood nowadays. and no, it’s definitely not pms.

imagine.

today’s service was magical. many questions which i’ve been doubting and worrying about for the past few days were answered. stories were told and i felt a particular connection to them.

to side track further, this time round my exams has been especially distracting.

CONCENTRATE!!!

but of cos, amidst the “hardcore” studying for my last exams, i need some R&R time eh. then OH SO SUDDENLY, i found myself reminiscing Archuleta’s version of Imagine. no, i’m not his fan but i really liked this edition. and so, here it goes.. take some time to read the lyrics eh.:)

Imagine there’s no Heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you’ll join us, and the world will live as one.

freak, what an uplifting song.

it’s been pretty much of a good week. but there’s always a certain lingering uneasiness.

sometimes, you know it yourself that blaming it on hard luck is just in denial. it’s either so true it’s painful, or i’m just plain useless. either way doesn’t feel good. *complain complain complain*

then you realized it’s just a waste of time.

and then when i want to erase these with a rush of adrenaline like how i usually do, i can’t.

makes it worse when i feel like calling, and i can’t again.

i feel trapped.

pls give me strength…

love will keep us alive.

everybody needs love.

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide

Lost and lonely
Now you’ve given me the will to survive
When we’re hungry…love will keep us alive

Don’t you worry
Sometimes you’ve just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I’ve found you
There’s no more emptiness inside
When we’re hungry…love will keep us alive

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you’ve given me the will to survive
When we’re hungry…love will keep us alive

love of any kind, will keep us alive.

Definitely, Maybe.

it started out slow, and ended being hopelessly romantic.  =) and boy, that girl from Lil’ Miss Sunshine can really act! will. sarah. summer. april.

The human heart has hidden treasures, In secret kept, in silence sealed;The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures, Whose charms were broken if revealed.

actually, i’m quite affected about screwing up the phone interview i had today. amidst being bored and drowned by the sleep-inducing petroleum notes, i had to rack my brains to think of politically correct answers.

‘which module did you enjoy most in school?’

*mind goes blank*

oh well… i can only blame it on myself.

today’s such an eventful day. despite many things, i think i’ll really really really miss hall.

the late night jogs. impromptu suppers. jumping onto ppl’s beds. american idol. studying in engine. stealing ppl’s food. steamboats. breaking of vases. ice creams. sushi. harry’s. holland v. ginza. vivo. clementi. grocery shopping. getting semi-drunk. birthdays.  dressing up. uncle v’s dinners. fong seng suppers. breakfasts. west coast park. gossips. craziness. complaints. screams. laughters. tears.

the list goes on. memories seem to lie in every single corner i tried to hide myself in.

i think i’m getting older by the day. okay i’m getting emo again. you see, the sun is down. reminiscing about this, thinking back about that. and for the second time in my entire (that i know of), i’m really afraid of the future. it’s nice to live in denial, or think that everything will fall into place eventually. but it’s not all so easy to do so. the uncertainty, the insecurity, the agony.

and ‘have you found a job?’ has became such a common question to ask when you start a conversation with someone you know, yet unfamiliar with. this qn certainly stirs my heart with uneasiness but i know i have to face it. i may seem unconcerned, but who doesn’t look forward to a fulfilling job at the end of the day? i’m an old fashion fresh grad; i prefer stayin on for my first job instead of the ‘trendy’ job hopping nowadays as how my uncle likes to say. but yet i really don’t know what i want now. ppl ask me ’so what do you want?’, and when i sincerely replied ‘i don’t know what i want for a job’, the taken aback look kinda puts me off. of cos i know what i want LARH (duh), but for a career and to be realistic/practical/rational, what i want can’t feed me. well, those who knows me well understands and so i often don’t bother explaining.

whatever will be, will be? so what awaits me?

but seriously, i’m okay. really. when fear comes, i’ll just look to faith. some things are just better written down in words. =) exams coming! gambateh!

the bashful are always aggressive and passionate at heart.

this is my symphony, of grace and faith.

toast to the future

hey there! =) here i’m starting a new blog to a brand new, uncertain yet exciting life that’s to come. to my friends, i reckoned that since graduation is now REALLY drawing near, we won’t be meeting each other that often to complain/whine/share our happiness that often anymore. so wldn’t it be nice to keep a blog to update each other of our lives???? -oh, so smart!-

hmm i know now’s not the time to get all emo and stuff. but in fact, every night i do think about not spending enough time with the girls in the midst of preparing my exams, or that i haven’t been spending enough time with my classmates, or any one else i hold close to my heart. these times just aren’t enough, aye? right now, i just wish i had a videocam to record down all the moments we had together.

don’t blame me for being so emo. tinghui provoked me with her chocolates. alright, back to my studies..