away again.

very often, whether you feel good or not, it’s all up to yourself.

leaving for a long trip to vietnam/china tomorrow, after which everything else is still uncertain at this stage. just praying that everything will turn out alright eventually. and to my friends who’re going through tough periods in their life, i’ll be praying for you too. =)

i’ll be missing you guys much!

today’s my first wkday at home without the girls ever since the end of my uni days. feels weird and the silence at home is deafening, if you get what i mean. killer. well i (or rather we) just have to get use to this yeah? certainly hope there’s some good in the goodbyes. what’s ahead will be a  series of tests awaiting us, of friendships, characters and strength. and i’m confident we can get through it together. =)

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nowadays the news that i’ve been receiving seemed rather discouraging. plan’s now to embark on our journey to hanoi and we’ll take it from there. definitely having my reservations to going up north. but i’m praying that our plans will go on smoothly. pls pray with me, and for our friends in china. =)

the moment i set foot on the beach, i was taken over by the light which fell on the water; hues of blue, silver and gold; the endless sky calling out to me. . . . . etc etc etc etc.

phuket’s a lovely place. =)

another 2 days of break and i’ll be off again. a trip very important to me.

away!

off to the sunny islands! be back on 12th. =)

what awaits?

sweet says i’m always very emo in blogging. well it’s not called emo laaaaaahhhh, jus thoughts which came by with spontaneous OVERFLOW of feelingssssssss.

i’m now only half done with packing up my stuff and it -just- suddenly dawned on me that tonight’s my last night in hall. and of cos, today i took the last of alllll papers in nus. suddenly i felt lost in life, without a definite direction. these days, ppl’ve been telling me ‘you never know what’s gonna happen next’ more than any other time EVER.

an overload of mixed feelings, indescribable.

perhaps it’s REALLY time for me to move on to the next phase in life. and i’m now beginning to accept it.

there beyond the sunset, lies my destiny. where my dreams and hopes, are masked with tranquility.

while ppl often associate sunrise to hope and great beginnings, sunsets are also one of the most beautiful gifts from Him as well. sunsets bring rest, and it’s probably the most romantic time in a day. sunset or sunrise, both are still connected in the cycle of life.

and we all know that after the momentary darkness following the sunset, a new beginning awaits.

and now, all i wanna say is THANKS, for giving me such wonderful friends. yes, you!!! =)

vulnerability

i never knew i could look so weak in front of my mom, until today. always thought that it’s a test of who’s stronger. and apparently, how can i compare with someone who has gone through so much, muchmuchmuch more than any other average woman of her age? i only have a brave front, while she has a heart filled with courage.

these two years have been a test of self insecurity, self esteem and self realization, until He has found me. while my father has forsaken the family, He’s presence has replaced the absence of such an important figure in my life. recently, i found containing troubles on the inside harder and harder as time goes by. but now, i don’t have to do so anymore.

all along i’ve been proceeding in the direction where my grades could lead me to. but suddenly at this point of time, i’ve been placed at the crossroad. and i know that no matter which direction i choose, there’s gonna be more obstacles to come, and it could hit me much harder than any others before. growing up isn’t easy.

so now, all i’ll do is to rest in Him and to have Him lead the way. for i know He’ll be there for me in the face of any intimidation. i hate being so emotionally weak and vulnerable. but i know with faith that from now on, i will only be stronger and stronger and stronger… =)

it’s been a weird weekend. a weekend which set many of us thinking. about the future, about life. and you know what, i prayed for many of you today. for those whom i hold close to my heart, i prayed. =)

goodnight world.

so what’s the problem?

the problem is, along the way, i’ve made friends who’re just too wonderful, and i can’t keep them by my side forever – the hall girls who made my life complete, classmates whom i never thought i could be so close to, my jc friends who stayed on with me through much sorrow and even MORE happiness.  as for the OTHER problem, it’s not a problem anymore. thanks Abba, and thanks to all who listened. =)

God put us here on this carnival ride.
We close our eyes, never knowing where it’ll take us next.

Its the wheel of the world, turning around.

carrie underwood rocks my socks.

i know that the work has been done. Finished. so excessive worrying is REDUNDANT. right?? =)

We only live once. ONCE. YI CI. SADUU. enough said.

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it’s been a weird final saturday in hall for me. an assortment of mixed feelings which i’ve never felt before and it’s overwhelming. so suffocating that it’s a constant, nagging distraction, despite me trying to concentrate on my last paper. then, an unexpected gift was bestowed upon me. all of a sudden i felt great peacefulness and tranquility, which i’ve been robbed off these few days. perhaps we should no longer be anxious, but instead thank, appreciate and most importantly cherish what’s in front of our path.

i just can’t thank You enough for that wonderful gift tonight. =)

footprints in the sand.

You walked with me, Footprints in the sand. And helped me understand where I’m going. You walked with me, when I was all alone. With so much I know along the way, then I heard you say.. I promise you, I’m always there. When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair. I’ll carry you, when you need a friend. You’ll find my footprints in the sand.

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